the best for you.

Internet.
What a morning.
A pretty bad one i guess?
Somehow, i cannot forget that horrific night.
It keeps ringing in my head every now and then.
And its not just affecting me.
Its affecting her too, i know she'll be reading.
Sometimes, its a very simple thing.
Have you ever been caught up in a moment when you're feeling so down and you're not smiling or talking at all.
Then, seeing your loved one suffering too.
It just makes you heart soften, and in order to give her the best.
You gotta pick yourself up, make yourself happy and smile.
But deep inside, you're lying to yourself.
Somehow, you're caught up in between your pride and your promise.
And also, your lies and how the truth actually gets in your way.
You're trying to be happy, but you can't, because deep inside you're not.
You can keep saying, i'll be fine soon, but deep inside you're unsure whether you will be or not.
You promised to keep her happy, but to keep her happy you gotta let your pride down, that's much easier actually.
I think i would really like to have her by my side now.
And to receive all the warmth that i can get.
Its very cold now, and my mind's very confused.
But you can't always be here.
And the best way out is actually.
To put yourself to sleep, when you're feeling the most relaxed and nothing can invade your mind.
But, the truth is still that.
When you wake up.
You'll still be thinking of her.
Missing her.
And wondering whether she's happy or not, when you're not.
That's probably the power of love?
All i can say now is that.
I wish that you'll be happy and i don't mind about myself.
You gotta be happy.
You must.

MingKang,

you were serenity,

Internet!
Uhs, i need someone to help me massage my whole body now.
Its aching really badly.
Well, sometimes, when you have good thoughts, tell yourself to calm down and assured yourself that everything will be alright.
Good things will start coming to you, and you'll feel so much more better in no time.
Perhaps, its the power of the mind?
Haha, things are better now?
4 days into the holidays already and it means that full days to study will be over soon.
Ahh, time to really mug non stop alreadyyy!
Good luck, MingKang, you can do it.
And Caroline, you can too. (:
Good luck to our journey to success. (:

MingKang!

& its all because of you

Internet.
Its funny how im posting at such early morning.
Uhs, have you ever been through a time, where you're feeling really so distracted.
But you keep everything to yourself and only say it out when you're sure that the person you want to talk to will not be distracted.
Somehow, i've came back to this blog and post stuffs.
There was a time, i stopped coming here.
& now, im back with a good reason.
To say whatever i want here.
Just to let me feel better.
Life's pretty unfair i guess?
Life's just like that.
I gotta live it, and live it well.
If not it'll be better if i just get lost and screw everything up.
There's a missing piece in my heart even up till now.
I know there's a problem, but i don't know how to solve it.
And im thinking to just shove it aside and just give her my full support.
She got her reasons, i understand.
She gotta study hardd.
And is much harder, her ego, her dreams.
I gotta study hard too.
But perhaps, i can multi-task and split my time better.
I'll just let my pride down, and support her wholeheartedly.
Let her know that i care, and im there for her.
Its pretty simple, there's no formula like maths.
I just gotta do it.
but,
I miss her.
I miss her, alot.
I really do.

MingKang.

longest stride

Hello Internett!
Revision's not too fast.
But i want to speed things up a little?
Cause im really afraid that there's not enough time.
Hmph. Thanks to Carolineeee for the beautiful wallet! (:
Love it, absolutely.
Huh, i'll start studying again now.
Its just like, a daily routine.

MingKang.

distract me.

Internet.
Today started off really really well.
With such a broad smile on my face.
Now, everything's messed up.
Im losing my concentration.
Its not a good time to.
I wished, you'll explain everything to me.
Im upset, very upset.
I want to know what is going on.
You might have your reasons.
But i really cannot take it.
You post such a status on facebook.
Do you know how would i feel after reading it?
Now, i feared going to your profile.
I want to study now.
But this occupied my whole brain.
Looking at the time you posted the status.
It was when i told you something and you were really happy.
Then, why?
Why?

MingKang.

standing ovation

Hello Internett!
Hehe, i'll take a short break from my social studies revision.
Ah, many many ups and downs recently.
Not going senior spec course in the end.
Hmph, disappointment disappointment. (:
But i went to the low point of life and take a really nice walk over there.
Now, im back up to the point where i enjoy it most.
Where all the good things comes to you.
Perhaps, im sitting at the arms of the giants now? (:
Going to vietnam on October with my class.
Whoots, 2nd time there, and i really cannot wait for it. (:
Then, China at december if possible with school leaders.
Life's tough now, but i feel that im tougher.
Exams are all packed forward to prevent clashing to the 10th anniversary.
Its gonna be really busy.
Looking forward to the life after exams.
Its September holidays now.
And i gotta concentrate on what i want and work for it now.
Its gonna be a busy holiday.
And a busy month for me even after the exams.
But i won't life beat me down.
Never i will, with such concentration. (:

MingKang.

it was during those days .

Hello Internett!
Ah, two weeks missing from school.
Watching the fireworks on that hospital bed during national day, tears dropped.
But, i'll be back tomorrow.
And i'll be awesommeeee! (:

MingKang!

dynamite.

Hello Internett!
Whoots, school's really busy recently.
Today's racial harmony day.
Have nothing much to say actually.
Life's pretty hard recently too.
Thank you so much for standing by my side all these while. (:
Its really nice to have you with me.
Hmph, gotta concentrate now.
Things must be sorted out,
At times, things are so desperate and i've just make a wish cause its 1111 just now.
Seriously, i think you'll help more.
So don't leave me, as you promised. (:

MingKang!

Carolinee! (:

Helloo Internet! (:
Hehe, Carolineee wants me to update so im here blogging again.
Its super hard to find a nice photo so that i can post lehs!
Haha, life pretty busy recently.
Homeworks, project works, proposals and lots of stuffs!
Busy busy young man! (:
Luck's pretty low too.
Knocked my head against the bus ceiling 2 times in the last week.
There's this bird which almost crash into me.
I've lost my thumbdrive but i found it already.
Ahh, it'll get better soon, right? (:
Going off to buffet later on with 3e1 and Mr Kang!
Whoawhoa, cannot wait for it manzxs!
Guess what?
England's out, Brazil's out, Argentina's out.
I can't believe that i'll be saying this.
But come on spain, you must win!
Uraguay also can.
Die die cannot let Germany win. (:
Haha, here's the update.

MingKang!

dropping the beat.

Hello Internet!
School started off very very badly.
Didn't enjoyed today at all.
So many things causing that smile of mine going upside down. ):
Wondering what's wrong with her?
Really dislike it when i get a feeling of being ignored by you.
Will have a nice chat with you to clear things up.
England lost too, totally saddening.
School's timetable changed into something called hell.
So many lessons taking up 3 periods and double science for 2 days.
How heavy will our bags be?
Having a tremendous headache now.
Got it since lunch, on the bus and until now.
Perhaps was too worried over you?
Off to bath.

MingKang!

lightning don't strike;

Hello Internet!
Ahh, the holidays are coming to an end.
Everything seems to pass so quickly.
First its the convention, then the specialist course.
Now its coming to the end already.
Home's pretty noisy today.
Played hours and hours of songs, doing lots of prefects' stuffs.
Something's really missing today, something's lacking.
Even though there's music, but life seems to be a little more quiet than usual.
Even the night's really really really quiet.
I feel like going down to the playground and have a walk.
But its so late now, and im really lazy.
Drinking coke with lots and lots of ice now.
There's meeting tomorrow.
Gonna be a tiring day. (:

MingKang!

falling to my knees

Hello Internett.
Ahh, really don't know what to sayy.
Im super prone to tears nowadays.
Like a crybaby tearing on my bed.
Something's really wrong with me.
But i stood up once again, and gave myself a new start.
At times, i kept on telling my juniors alot of stuffs.
Telling them that when they are at the highest point of their life, they must bear in mind to keep their foot on the ground.
But instead, i ended up falling so hard that it took me so long to stand up on my feet again.
Somethings are never to be taken for granted.
Which is never ever ever even think about taking it for granted.
My life is really a very interesting one.
I went so high up before and now im going all the way down.
I really really want to go back to where i were in the past.
But instead, when i think of going back, it made me unable to concentrate in how to pick myself up and work my way up once more.
I've fallen, goodbye.

MingKang.

tumbling.

Hello Internet!
Ahh, so long since i updated the blogg! (:
Student Leaders' Convention was AWESOME!
Met a great and fantastic bunch of people from many different schools.
Its a 4 days course, and i love all 4 days.
Hahas!
Kinda miss all of them actually, cause during these 4 days, really really learn lots and lost of things!
And met this new friend, his name was Wong Kang Ming. Cool or whatt? (:
Haha, really miss those times. (:



Then, was my cousin's wedding.
Great food i would say. (:
Ah, then specialist course.
Really dislike it manzxs!
Finished as a 3rd sgt.
Don't wanna talk about it already. (:

Haha, off to do other things.
Im very bussyyyy!

MingKang!

It rains all night.

Hello internet!
Whoas, im back to my blog again.
Haha, got back my results.
Was kinda okay, i guess?
Well,doing my tuition homework now.
My june holidays is very very very packed! D:
Spec course, convention camp, and stuffs.
Whoas! D:
Damn damn damn.

MingKang!

Bleh!

Hello Internet!
Huh! Exams are super near!!!
Had tuition earlier on, super complicated one.
Hmm, well well shall not talk so much here, off to homeworks!

MingKang!

Its broken.

Helloooo Internett! (:
Hahas, got back my chinese and emaths test yesterday.
Pretty well done, i guess..
Yesterday was a tiring day, sleeping for one whole night lehs.
Hahas!
Then today, whoa, sucked totally!
Didn't enjoy my day after recess, it suck totally manzxs!
Don't wanna talk about it already larhs!
I took out my nice nice notebook, and start to do notes for Chemistry.
And other subjects too, 1 chapter by 1 chapter! (:
I'll finish it before the exams starts!
Im on track, i wanna do well.
I wanna do well! (:

MingKang!

Yawns.

Hellooos Internet!
Super tired today.
Reached home, and i fall asleep.
Then i woke up, and i went to sleep again.
And im feeling so tired now, ahhhh!
Just found out that im studying the wrong stuffs for bio test on Wednesday.
Hahas, blur sotong.
Don't feel like doing summary lehs.
But need to do, totally totally boring!
Forget it, i shall brief brief do my summary.
And find Mr Kang someday before the exams to polish up my summary skills, because i miss all the lessons on summary. D:
And Mrs Bu is still sick! We're like farr farr behind for Chemistry.
Few more days to exam.
Ahhs!
Off to summary.
Then Maths! :D

MingKang!

You're the only exception.

Hello Internet!
Hehe, studying now..
Well well, its another long week.
With so many things, perhaps the first week of term 2 that i went home so late lehs!
Hahas!
Tests recently were great.
The results what i wanted.
Haha!
So happyyyy! (:

MingKang!

On the streets.

Hello Internet!
Finally, i did it.
Finally, i've got the chance.
I've pass my IMT and finally going to the live range.
Holding a real rifle. Simply, fantastic.
Hahas! Even though i spend most of my weekend doing so much homework, but it was worthwhile. (:
I finished it, and im free today.
Finally, study!
MUG MUG MUG! :D
Haha, nothing's gonna stop me this week.
Will be really busyy!
Its time.
Go for it. (:

MingKang!

Put it in a love song.

Hello Internettt! (:

Hahas, what a busyy week.
Damn, exams are coming!
Ahhh! ):
Many many things to do.
And my eyes are like so itchy.
WAH! D;
Cannot cannot fall sick.
MUST do well some more.
Wishh me luckkkkk!

MingKang!

OMG! :D

Hello Internet!
Haha, love the weather currently, the many many raindrops! :D
Hahahahahahaa!
Nothing to post about.
Is actually i lazy type!
Haha! :D

MingKang!

& crash into the wall.

Hello Internet.
Hmm, studied with a candle just now.
Like it pretty much?
Ahh, not in the mood to post now.
Goodnight People.

MingKang.

When you take a ride.

Hello Internet!

This week is super duper busy.
Earth hour's tonight, its gonna be easy to pass! (with homework)

Haha, there's tons and tons of homework for me to finish this weekend.

And guess what?! Out of so many people in the class, im one of the few that is selecting to check the maths file.

Ahhhh! D:

So many 10 year series to do.

Ahh, got tuition later! Yays! :D

MingKang!

wavin' flag.

Hello Internet!
Hahas! i WANT THIS CAMERA. :D
Its super cool i tell you. (:
Anyone willing to buy for me? :D
Haha.
Well, homework homework homework and homework.
Haha, cousin getting married tomorrow.
Woohoos! Good good food tonight! Hahas. :D
Im just a pig a skinny one that eats non stop.
Haha, im very very happy.
And i don't know why. (:
Hoho.
I want that camera so muchh!

MingKang!

its when you doubt your abilities.

Hello Internet.
Been so long since i last updated this blog.
Everytime i come here, i want to type out everything.
But even before i start, i get tired to type it out.
Just like now.

MingKang.

I'll give you all i can.

Hello Internet!

Well, its a super busy week.
Sec 3 life is super busy and tiring.
Only 5-6 hours of sleep everyday.
Ahh, damn it.
Well, its been so long since i last posted.
All the relinking and tags.
All never reply.
Haha, give me some time.
Im a busy young man! Haha!
Hmm, i wanna sleep already.
She's not replying my messages. ):
Shall wait or sleep?
Hmph.

MingKang!

Slowing Down.

Hello Internet!
Haha, CNY Eve, fantastic day, where im able to sleep uitil so latee! (:
Well well, a super busy week.
The investiture, the meetings, the planning.
Well well, i loved Thursday and Friday.
Those beautiful times. (:
Haha, my god, im like so bored.
Shall do some planing! (:

PS. To those people who told me to link you, gimme so time aye? (:

MingKang!

open arms.

Hello Internet!
Well, shall elaborate on last week since i didn't do it in the previous post.
Hahas, i can only remember a little only, those one with either very nice memories or very unpleasant ones.
Haha, its super busy cause there's alot of tests and investiture rehearsal.
Hmm, went to Hwa Chong investiture on Wednesday with Caroline and Ziyang. (:
Haha, i love that day the most.
Especially the time in the taxi.
Really really nice. (:
Then i talked about Friday already.
Erm, had many tests.
Did well in Chemistry and Amaths.
Not really in E maths, but its okay. (:
Next week, SS test, Bio test, physics test!
Oh my, so busy.
Chinese new year is coming soon!
Really really cannot wait for it as it serves as a break for me to rest.
Haha, went back to school on Saturday for NCC.
Then halfway through, left for the Touch Committee thing.
Then, tuition.
Really sorry to let Caroline to wait for me at the void deck.
156 was super slow. x(
Then went to tuition together.
After tuition, went back to Hougang Point for SS project.
Super funny, ate Happy meal.
Haha! (:
Shall stop here for now.
I wanna practice Maths, before i forget them again. (:

MingKang!

stick like a glue, a superglue.

Hello Internet.

Well, a rather busy week i would say.
With lots of smiles and tears.
The most unforgettable week for 2010, i think.
I'll start with Friday, instead of Monday.
Well, we knew who's the deputy heads for sec 3 today.
Unexpected, totally unexpected.
Me, Xavier, Caroline, Shangge, Janice.
5 only, but not 6.
There's this name that everyone in the room expect him to be, but his name was not read out.
This part is dedicated for ChanZhiLin.
What you've said today, "cleaning up the prefects room tomorrow will be the last thing i do for prefectorial board"
I disagree, completely.
Even though you're not a dh.
You're still one of us.
There's still many things that you can do.
We've been so close for 3 years.
When the sec 4 dhs left, whatever things you've told me in front of everyone.
I will not forget what you've told me, what you've taught me.
I can remember all the tears that are dropped today.
Each of it is for you, and there will be much more sweat that will be dropping in the future, not just the 5 of us, but everyone's sweat.
We will work together, just like before.
Stick like a glue, a superglue. (:
Nothing has changed, we're still brothers. (:

Well, i don't wanna elaborate on the other things already.
But congratulations to Caroline, Xavier, Janice and Shangge too. (:
We will work hard together with the rest.

MingKang!

songs in my head.

Hello Internet!
Another busy week this time.
Attend school for 3 days only, but its still very packed.
Hmm, lots of tests, lots of homework, lots of revision.
Wednesday going for investiture, really really cannot wait for it. (:
Physics suck!
But i've got my sis to teach me.
Anyways, had my DH interview this friday.
Really really hope that i make it. (:
Haha, can't wait for next week with all the interesting stuffs coming on.
Went for NCC today.
PT was super tiring.
Really really really tiring.
But its nice.
Then went for HLC workshop later on.
Hmm, then went for tuition with Caroline.
Well, i feel super shy during the tuition, the teacher come check my work i feel so scared like that. -.-
Haha, well off to study!

MingKang!

world behind my wall.

Hello Internet.
Ahh, MCed for two days. TWO DAYS!
Damn it larhs, don't know miss how many things already.
Why must have fever at this time?
Im so going back school tomorrow.
Meanwhile, off to study.

MingKang!

riding solo'

Hello Internet!
NCC was super duper "hiong" today.
Haha, PT was like -.- .
Tiring tiring and tiring.
Hmm, then went to the meeting after NCC.
Was fun again. (:
Basketball and soccer after that. (:
Hahas, slacking in basketball.
Then, soccer was really really fun shot the ball into the hoop for 3 times.
Haha, shall go study now.(:

MingKang!

beautiful disaster.

Hello Internet! (:
The workload this week is hectic!
Tests are coming up for the next 2 weeks.
Really really cannot wait for CNY manzxs! (:

Hope that everything will turn out okay!

Well, really really tired this few days.
Went to AMQ camp on wednesday for INOX.
Kinda fun but the other schools are like so idiotic. -.-
Hehe, i love recess nowadays.
Really with the longan drink and you with me.
Really really nice.
It makes me focus for the next half of lessons.
Love it. (:
Off to study Chemistry!

MingKang!

hands on the wheel.

Hello Internet!
Hahas, im very very happy right now. (:
Really really super super super HAPPY!
Hahas!
Finished all my homework today.
Really relieved.
Revised, then watch American Idol on facebook.
Haha.
Then sms and sms.
And now im super happy. (:
School starts late tomorrow!
YAY!

MingKang!

its that spirit.

Hello Internet!
Haha, this week is SUPER busy. (:
Homeworks, meetings, cca.
Whoosh, and 1 week gone.
Haha, im beginning to like the life of being a Sec 3!
Hhaa, i like this kind of busy life.
Really really interesting and cool! (:
Haha.
Well, but indices is tiring me out.
Shall study really hard!
Had meeting on friday.
Really really how to say?
Lots of things learnt i would say.
Then the sec 4 DHs, Xiangyue, Gengyun, Wayne, Alvin, Ziyang, Jaijie and me went to Mall.
Then ate play and then sweets!
Hahas!
Then, had this workshop from touch committee today.
Well well, off to do my weekend homeworkssss(with many many Ss! (: )

MingKang!

Morning after dark.

Hello Internet!
Super proud of my sister's o levels results. (:
Hahas.
Well, today was really quick.
1st lesson on physics and its like ...
Skip skip skip.
Then, had debrief for Sec1Orientation.
Well, and there's some unexpected news too.
Hmm, then went to Joy Connection to discuss the CIP thing with the in charge over there.
Super irritated that part.
But its okay.
Well well well, gotta study real real real hard to be just like my sis. (:

MingKang!


Sorry, i have no time for relationships this year.

when love takes over.

Hello Internet!
Hohoho, suppose to go for this HLC/Prefects meeting today.
But im going for this h1n1 injection.
OWWW!
Haha, its not pain at all one.
Was smsing Caroline while waiting for my turn.
Then i saw this kid, or rather a baby.
Super cute then keep playing peek-a-boo with him or is it her?
Haha.
Super nice one.
Then, my turn.
Go in see the long long needle.
Shivered a little.
Then its over. -.-
Went home, slept all the way until like 3 plus.
So many missed calls and messages.
Haha.
Then, something bad happen just now.
Solved everything.
Sorry to Lixuan if im too straightforward or something.
But you'll understand right? You're matured one. HAHAS!
So, sacrificed a little moved back a few steps and everything's over.
Haha.
Suddenly, Gerald came asking about the camp.
Haha, luckily got a little plan already.
Superr late now.
I go sleep first.
Me lazy.

MingKang!

Sec 1 Orientation.

Hello Internet!
Well, 4 days of Sec 1 orientation.
Ended so quickly.
Hmm, i miss my 1e1 actually.
Haha, a fantastic class.
With fantastic people in it.
Hmm, i love them. (:
Well, on the first day everything's rather quiet.
The facils are all trying to get the class talking and bringing the atmosphere up.
And guess what?
The class remember the female facils' name, but NOT MINE!
Haha, utterly paiseh.
Hahs!
Then we had games until 1230.
Second day, met ziyang, xavier jiajie and zhilin and walk to school together.
The free-est day of all.
Had trail run then learned the 3 different handshakes from alvin.
Hahas!
Then, 3rd day.
AMAZING RACE @ SENTOSA.
The best day of all.
Kailin, Dilys, Jermian, Shimin, Lixuan, Putri, Cherry, Haozhi, Ellester.
They are the fantastic people.
Haha, throughout sentosa trip, they showed great GREAT GREAT spirit.
Love them.
The group photo's on top.
Spend most of the time in Sentosa that day.
Im really really proud of them.
I remembered vividly, its 310 and at 315 i have to leave to the coach park with them.
So, its the last station im going to its called stick towers.
I told them to build a tower in 5 minutes and they DID IT.(:
Good job people. (: *claps claps*
Then we finished 9 stations out of 15.
Even though we didn't finish everything but im still very proud of them.
Very very proud.
The nasi lemak is suuuuper good! :D
With the otah donated by my group people plus Shermain. (:
Hahas!
Then, i remember that i ate the slowest.
Hahas!
Fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic time we had.
The relationship between the students and even towards the facils got so much more closer.
Then, Koksiang keep on touching my hair. !!
4th day.
CAMPFIRE DAY.
haha, well i remember that Lixuan they all keep laughing at me in the morning.
Saying that i very "niang." -.-
Then, im like wth?
Okay, nevermind about that.
Had mass dance practice. Then, its super funny cause my class SABOED me.
They knew there's this forfeit of redance if they say im the winner.
So they said i am,.
And i have to do banana dance for them.
I bet they had a nice time looking at me dancing.
Hahas.
Then, played games after recess.
And CCA recruitment.
Skip skip skip.
And its night time and its campfire.
Being assigned the post of a fire feeder.
Or a fireman. !!!
So i gotta carry a fire extinguisher around the field.
Then my class laughed at me cause im scared of beetles and flying stuffs. -.-
Hahas,
Then that's about it.
Well in this camp.
I learnt one very important thing, learn to look at one's good points than a bad point.
Thank you 1e1 for teaching me this.
You guys will be remembered.
So remember me too.

MingKang!

time to step up.

Hello Internet!
Hehe, 2010 kinda looks nice to me already.
My father got me a new watch.
But my hair's freaking short now.
Haha!
Nevermind about that, use to it liaos!
Well, had ncc today.
Super tiring i tell you.
But its nice.
Planned the positions for the Part a camp next year..
Well rather satisfied with it.
Im super tired now!
Goodnight. (:

MingKang!