the best for you.

Internet.
What a morning.
A pretty bad one i guess?
Somehow, i cannot forget that horrific night.
It keeps ringing in my head every now and then.
And its not just affecting me.
Its affecting her too, i know she'll be reading.
Sometimes, its a very simple thing.
Have you ever been caught up in a moment when you're feeling so down and you're not smiling or talking at all.
Then, seeing your loved one suffering too.
It just makes you heart soften, and in order to give her the best.
You gotta pick yourself up, make yourself happy and smile.
But deep inside, you're lying to yourself.
Somehow, you're caught up in between your pride and your promise.
And also, your lies and how the truth actually gets in your way.
You're trying to be happy, but you can't, because deep inside you're not.
You can keep saying, i'll be fine soon, but deep inside you're unsure whether you will be or not.
You promised to keep her happy, but to keep her happy you gotta let your pride down, that's much easier actually.
I think i would really like to have her by my side now.
And to receive all the warmth that i can get.
Its very cold now, and my mind's very confused.
But you can't always be here.
And the best way out is actually.
To put yourself to sleep, when you're feeling the most relaxed and nothing can invade your mind.
But, the truth is still that.
When you wake up.
You'll still be thinking of her.
Missing her.
And wondering whether she's happy or not, when you're not.
That's probably the power of love?
All i can say now is that.
I wish that you'll be happy and i don't mind about myself.
You gotta be happy.
You must.

MingKang,

you were serenity,

Internet!
Uhs, i need someone to help me massage my whole body now.
Its aching really badly.
Well, sometimes, when you have good thoughts, tell yourself to calm down and assured yourself that everything will be alright.
Good things will start coming to you, and you'll feel so much more better in no time.
Perhaps, its the power of the mind?
Haha, things are better now?
4 days into the holidays already and it means that full days to study will be over soon.
Ahh, time to really mug non stop alreadyyy!
Good luck, MingKang, you can do it.
And Caroline, you can too. (:
Good luck to our journey to success. (:

MingKang!

& its all because of you

Internet.
Its funny how im posting at such early morning.
Uhs, have you ever been through a time, where you're feeling really so distracted.
But you keep everything to yourself and only say it out when you're sure that the person you want to talk to will not be distracted.
Somehow, i've came back to this blog and post stuffs.
There was a time, i stopped coming here.
& now, im back with a good reason.
To say whatever i want here.
Just to let me feel better.
Life's pretty unfair i guess?
Life's just like that.
I gotta live it, and live it well.
If not it'll be better if i just get lost and screw everything up.
There's a missing piece in my heart even up till now.
I know there's a problem, but i don't know how to solve it.
And im thinking to just shove it aside and just give her my full support.
She got her reasons, i understand.
She gotta study hardd.
And is much harder, her ego, her dreams.
I gotta study hard too.
But perhaps, i can multi-task and split my time better.
I'll just let my pride down, and support her wholeheartedly.
Let her know that i care, and im there for her.
Its pretty simple, there's no formula like maths.
I just gotta do it.
but,
I miss her.
I miss her, alot.
I really do.

MingKang.

longest stride

Hello Internett!
Revision's not too fast.
But i want to speed things up a little?
Cause im really afraid that there's not enough time.
Hmph. Thanks to Carolineeee for the beautiful wallet! (:
Love it, absolutely.
Huh, i'll start studying again now.
Its just like, a daily routine.

MingKang.

distract me.

Internet.
Today started off really really well.
With such a broad smile on my face.
Now, everything's messed up.
Im losing my concentration.
Its not a good time to.
I wished, you'll explain everything to me.
Im upset, very upset.
I want to know what is going on.
You might have your reasons.
But i really cannot take it.
You post such a status on facebook.
Do you know how would i feel after reading it?
Now, i feared going to your profile.
I want to study now.
But this occupied my whole brain.
Looking at the time you posted the status.
It was when i told you something and you were really happy.
Then, why?
Why?

MingKang.

standing ovation

Hello Internett!
Hehe, i'll take a short break from my social studies revision.
Ah, many many ups and downs recently.
Not going senior spec course in the end.
Hmph, disappointment disappointment. (:
But i went to the low point of life and take a really nice walk over there.
Now, im back up to the point where i enjoy it most.
Where all the good things comes to you.
Perhaps, im sitting at the arms of the giants now? (:
Going to vietnam on October with my class.
Whoots, 2nd time there, and i really cannot wait for it. (:
Then, China at december if possible with school leaders.
Life's tough now, but i feel that im tougher.
Exams are all packed forward to prevent clashing to the 10th anniversary.
Its gonna be really busy.
Looking forward to the life after exams.
Its September holidays now.
And i gotta concentrate on what i want and work for it now.
Its gonna be a busy holiday.
And a busy month for me even after the exams.
But i won't life beat me down.
Never i will, with such concentration. (:

MingKang.

it was during those days .

Hello Internett!
Ah, two weeks missing from school.
Watching the fireworks on that hospital bed during national day, tears dropped.
But, i'll be back tomorrow.
And i'll be awesommeeee! (:

MingKang!

dynamite.

Hello Internett!
Whoots, school's really busy recently.
Today's racial harmony day.
Have nothing much to say actually.
Life's pretty hard recently too.
Thank you so much for standing by my side all these while. (:
Its really nice to have you with me.
Hmph, gotta concentrate now.
Things must be sorted out,
At times, things are so desperate and i've just make a wish cause its 1111 just now.
Seriously, i think you'll help more.
So don't leave me, as you promised. (:

MingKang!

Carolinee! (:

Helloo Internet! (:
Hehe, Carolineee wants me to update so im here blogging again.
Its super hard to find a nice photo so that i can post lehs!
Haha, life pretty busy recently.
Homeworks, project works, proposals and lots of stuffs!
Busy busy young man! (:
Luck's pretty low too.
Knocked my head against the bus ceiling 2 times in the last week.
There's this bird which almost crash into me.
I've lost my thumbdrive but i found it already.
Ahh, it'll get better soon, right? (:
Going off to buffet later on with 3e1 and Mr Kang!
Whoawhoa, cannot wait for it manzxs!
Guess what?
England's out, Brazil's out, Argentina's out.
I can't believe that i'll be saying this.
But come on spain, you must win!
Uraguay also can.
Die die cannot let Germany win. (:
Haha, here's the update.

MingKang!

dropping the beat.

Hello Internet!
School started off very very badly.
Didn't enjoyed today at all.
So many things causing that smile of mine going upside down. ):
Wondering what's wrong with her?
Really dislike it when i get a feeling of being ignored by you.
Will have a nice chat with you to clear things up.
England lost too, totally saddening.
School's timetable changed into something called hell.
So many lessons taking up 3 periods and double science for 2 days.
How heavy will our bags be?
Having a tremendous headache now.
Got it since lunch, on the bus and until now.
Perhaps was too worried over you?
Off to bath.

MingKang!

lightning don't strike;

Hello Internet!
Ahh, the holidays are coming to an end.
Everything seems to pass so quickly.
First its the convention, then the specialist course.
Now its coming to the end already.
Home's pretty noisy today.
Played hours and hours of songs, doing lots of prefects' stuffs.
Something's really missing today, something's lacking.
Even though there's music, but life seems to be a little more quiet than usual.
Even the night's really really really quiet.
I feel like going down to the playground and have a walk.
But its so late now, and im really lazy.
Drinking coke with lots and lots of ice now.
There's meeting tomorrow.
Gonna be a tiring day. (:

MingKang!

falling to my knees

Hello Internett.
Ahh, really don't know what to sayy.
Im super prone to tears nowadays.
Like a crybaby tearing on my bed.
Something's really wrong with me.
But i stood up once again, and gave myself a new start.
At times, i kept on telling my juniors alot of stuffs.
Telling them that when they are at the highest point of their life, they must bear in mind to keep their foot on the ground.
But instead, i ended up falling so hard that it took me so long to stand up on my feet again.
Somethings are never to be taken for granted.
Which is never ever ever even think about taking it for granted.
My life is really a very interesting one.
I went so high up before and now im going all the way down.
I really really want to go back to where i were in the past.
But instead, when i think of going back, it made me unable to concentrate in how to pick myself up and work my way up once more.
I've fallen, goodbye.

MingKang.

tumbling.

Hello Internet!
Ahh, so long since i updated the blogg! (:
Student Leaders' Convention was AWESOME!
Met a great and fantastic bunch of people from many different schools.
Its a 4 days course, and i love all 4 days.
Hahas!
Kinda miss all of them actually, cause during these 4 days, really really learn lots and lost of things!
And met this new friend, his name was Wong Kang Ming. Cool or whatt? (:
Haha, really miss those times. (:



Then, was my cousin's wedding.
Great food i would say. (:
Ah, then specialist course.
Really dislike it manzxs!
Finished as a 3rd sgt.
Don't wanna talk about it already. (:

Haha, off to do other things.
Im very bussyyyy!

MingKang!

It rains all night.

Hello internet!
Whoas, im back to my blog again.
Haha, got back my results.
Was kinda okay, i guess?
Well,doing my tuition homework now.
My june holidays is very very very packed! D:
Spec course, convention camp, and stuffs.
Whoas! D:
Damn damn damn.

MingKang!

Bleh!

Hello Internet!
Huh! Exams are super near!!!
Had tuition earlier on, super complicated one.
Hmm, well well shall not talk so much here, off to homeworks!

MingKang!