Its been quite some time since i last blogged here.
Life is pretty much the same since the last update. Its still the usual stuffs.
But something inside me changed significantly, its how i see the world.
The perspective i have in many things changed, and its because of one thing.
Something that is really very harsh and it keeps us from wandering too far in our different dreamland.
Something called - reality.
At this moment, i don't dare to say that i'm probably one of those teenagers that gone through all sorts of highs and lows in my life.
But certainly, i did experience reality, and i did went to all sorts of highs and lows in my life. However, i count myself as one of those fortunate ones.
You might ask why? Because in the midst of being almost blinded by reality, i managed to open my eyes wide enough to look at the brighter side of life.
Why complain about things that i don't have or i have failed in, when i have the other choice of appreciating the different stuffs i have and i have succeeded in.
But let's take a moment for me to type out how this transformation take place.
In my secondary school days, i was taught alot about many many different things other than academics.
Being one of those privileged few, i'm those kind of students who loved to take up to responsibilities, those kind of student who sign up for plenty of different courses so i can enrich myself.
During those days, i learn quite alot about leadership, and i also come across tons of inspiring life quotes.
But during my last year, i had to put all those aside even though my passion is still burning there, for the o levels.
I studied very hard, putting in my best, because of two reason.
I don't want to disappoint my parents like how i did during PSLE.
& also, i'm studying for the one i love, if i don't do well during the Os, then the future not only for us, but also for me, will be much tougher and much bitter.
So the transformation kicks in when i was waiting for my results, the time when i had my first working experience.
The different kind of politics within a f&b outlet, those experiences of unkind customers.
& i faced some other problem in different aspects of my life that time.
Truthfully, i hit rock bottom, it was probably one of the lowest point i had in my life yet. But i know there's more to come.
I was so upset at that time, that i felt all those stuffs i heard and learnt in secondary school are all lies.
It does not apply to the real world.
& i call all those things i learn as the "fantasy world" .
It was only until after loads of self reflection and courage that i realise and admit i was not right.
Yes, such stuffs do not exist as prominently in the real world.
Reality is so tough, life keeps knocking you down and when you get up and move on, it knocks you down again.
I thought im breaking apart, and there was this indescribable feeling that weigh me down.
& recently, when i was on the verge of breaking, i found out that no matter how hard things get, its just one simple and yet strong thought that will prevent you from breaking and keeps me moving.
"You're stronger than this MingKang, you will not break"
Its one thought, but it has to be practiced, and here i am.
Feeling better than ever.
We always have a choice, but sometimes the other choice can be so hard and painful that we want to choose the easy way out.
That's how humans work i believe.
But its only through such hard and painful times that makes us stronger.
I know what i'm worth for, and i'll be willing to go back out to the real world and also a new world of polytechnic, and go and fight for what i'm worth.
Nobody cares about what you should get or what's rightfully your's if they're not your loved ones.
Resign to the fate that this world is competitive.
We all fight for our goals, but many steps on others to achieve it.
& for me, i'll fight for it, and at the same time, i will definitely not let down the principles i hold.
I know its not easy, and i know i'll fall apart at some point.
But i'll keep going, breaking every single barrier in front of me with my own hands, hardwork and perseverance.
I hope for the best for me.
& yes, i know i can.
MingKang.
