the best for you.

Internet.
What a morning.
A pretty bad one i guess?
Somehow, i cannot forget that horrific night.
It keeps ringing in my head every now and then.
And its not just affecting me.
Its affecting her too, i know she'll be reading.
Sometimes, its a very simple thing.
Have you ever been caught up in a moment when you're feeling so down and you're not smiling or talking at all.
Then, seeing your loved one suffering too.
It just makes you heart soften, and in order to give her the best.
You gotta pick yourself up, make yourself happy and smile.
But deep inside, you're lying to yourself.
Somehow, you're caught up in between your pride and your promise.
And also, your lies and how the truth actually gets in your way.
You're trying to be happy, but you can't, because deep inside you're not.
You can keep saying, i'll be fine soon, but deep inside you're unsure whether you will be or not.
You promised to keep her happy, but to keep her happy you gotta let your pride down, that's much easier actually.
I think i would really like to have her by my side now.
And to receive all the warmth that i can get.
Its very cold now, and my mind's very confused.
But you can't always be here.
And the best way out is actually.
To put yourself to sleep, when you're feeling the most relaxed and nothing can invade your mind.
But, the truth is still that.
When you wake up.
You'll still be thinking of her.
Missing her.
And wondering whether she's happy or not, when you're not.
That's probably the power of love?
All i can say now is that.
I wish that you'll be happy and i don't mind about myself.
You gotta be happy.
You must.

MingKang,

you were serenity,

Internet!
Uhs, i need someone to help me massage my whole body now.
Its aching really badly.
Well, sometimes, when you have good thoughts, tell yourself to calm down and assured yourself that everything will be alright.
Good things will start coming to you, and you'll feel so much more better in no time.
Perhaps, its the power of the mind?
Haha, things are better now?
4 days into the holidays already and it means that full days to study will be over soon.
Ahh, time to really mug non stop alreadyyy!
Good luck, MingKang, you can do it.
And Caroline, you can too. (:
Good luck to our journey to success. (:

MingKang!

& its all because of you

Internet.
Its funny how im posting at such early morning.
Uhs, have you ever been through a time, where you're feeling really so distracted.
But you keep everything to yourself and only say it out when you're sure that the person you want to talk to will not be distracted.
Somehow, i've came back to this blog and post stuffs.
There was a time, i stopped coming here.
& now, im back with a good reason.
To say whatever i want here.
Just to let me feel better.
Life's pretty unfair i guess?
Life's just like that.
I gotta live it, and live it well.
If not it'll be better if i just get lost and screw everything up.
There's a missing piece in my heart even up till now.
I know there's a problem, but i don't know how to solve it.
And im thinking to just shove it aside and just give her my full support.
She got her reasons, i understand.
She gotta study hardd.
And is much harder, her ego, her dreams.
I gotta study hard too.
But perhaps, i can multi-task and split my time better.
I'll just let my pride down, and support her wholeheartedly.
Let her know that i care, and im there for her.
Its pretty simple, there's no formula like maths.
I just gotta do it.
but,
I miss her.
I miss her, alot.
I really do.

MingKang.

longest stride

Hello Internett!
Revision's not too fast.
But i want to speed things up a little?
Cause im really afraid that there's not enough time.
Hmph. Thanks to Carolineeee for the beautiful wallet! (:
Love it, absolutely.
Huh, i'll start studying again now.
Its just like, a daily routine.

MingKang.

distract me.

Internet.
Today started off really really well.
With such a broad smile on my face.
Now, everything's messed up.
Im losing my concentration.
Its not a good time to.
I wished, you'll explain everything to me.
Im upset, very upset.
I want to know what is going on.
You might have your reasons.
But i really cannot take it.
You post such a status on facebook.
Do you know how would i feel after reading it?
Now, i feared going to your profile.
I want to study now.
But this occupied my whole brain.
Looking at the time you posted the status.
It was when i told you something and you were really happy.
Then, why?
Why?

MingKang.

standing ovation

Hello Internett!
Hehe, i'll take a short break from my social studies revision.
Ah, many many ups and downs recently.
Not going senior spec course in the end.
Hmph, disappointment disappointment. (:
But i went to the low point of life and take a really nice walk over there.
Now, im back up to the point where i enjoy it most.
Where all the good things comes to you.
Perhaps, im sitting at the arms of the giants now? (:
Going to vietnam on October with my class.
Whoots, 2nd time there, and i really cannot wait for it. (:
Then, China at december if possible with school leaders.
Life's tough now, but i feel that im tougher.
Exams are all packed forward to prevent clashing to the 10th anniversary.
Its gonna be really busy.
Looking forward to the life after exams.
Its September holidays now.
And i gotta concentrate on what i want and work for it now.
Its gonna be a busy holiday.
And a busy month for me even after the exams.
But i won't life beat me down.
Never i will, with such concentration. (:

MingKang.